I've been looking at this same damm cutesty little apple on the wallpaper now for ten minutes. God, how I hate this. Dad said he wanted to take me down a few pegs, instill a little humility in me. Well if by humility he means humiliation, he succeeded. Oh god, the doorbell, more people arriving for the BBQ. Why does dad have to do this when people are coming over? Is it just because he found out about it today? Or is it because he wants me to always remenber this. Well how the hell could I forget it. Jesus in a few minutes people are going to ber wandering in and out of here to get beers and pop out of the fridge. Who's coming over, Uncle Gary and Aunt Lois and their boys. Well that wouln't be too bad, I know they are no strangers to spanking, heck I saw Bobby getting his eleven year old butt getting tanned by Lois's hairbrush a month ago, and I'm sure that Steve and Kevin have had their underwear around there knees more times than they care to remember. Still I'm 13, I have to be getting to old fr this crap. Are the Johnsons coming over? Is that how Dad knows, did Billy tell? I'll bet he did, and probalby just after a lecture and the threat of no TV for a week. That little brat has probably never been touched by his mom or dad. Damm and I got him that weed as a favor, and this is how he repays me?
Is that why I am in this damm situation? I wish I knew. Dad clearly knows something? But what and how much? I don't know, that not Dad's style. No, he says confession is good for the soul, well it clearly isn't any good for my butt. Thats the worst part of this all; I can get out of this corner anytime I want. All I have to do is go outside to the back deck and confess. That and politely ask for my punishment. But what do i confess to? What does he know? Its stupid to confess to stuff he doesn't know about. On the other hand, god help me if I go out there and don't confess to ALL the stuff he does know about. Hell he considers that lying, and to him thats about the worst sin in the book. Hell he would probalbly rather see me murder someone, as long as I was upfront and honest about it. I wish Dad would just confront me with what he knows. No, now I have to make a public confession of my wrongdoing. God its embarassing to stand there on the back deck, in front of everybody, with my pants down, and tell thell how bad I have been. I hate having to ask for my punishment. Dad can be such a hypocrate about that. I can't lye to get out of trouble. I can't lye to make myself look better. But I have to act like I want to get my butt turned red as this dammed apple on the wall. Well I do want to get it over. I do want his to forgive me. The only way that can happen is for me to do it...confess and ask for it, both the punishment and the forgiveness. I can't have one without the other.
What do I confess to, the pot? Selling it to Billy? "Borrowing" the money from mom's purse to get it. How much does he know? I can't go out there untill I figure it out? How bad am I going to get it? What am I going to get it with? Hell, everyone will know I going to get it bad. But will I get it outside with everybody watching, or will he bring me down to the basement to get it? If I don't tell him everything I'll definately get it outside. On the other hand, the stealing probably means the switch. Man how I hate cutting those things. Its even worse with everybody watching you?
Courage Tommy, get your courage up. Do it, the longer you wait, the worse it will be. More people will be here. You have to do it sooner or later. You can't stand here all night can you. I could try to wait it out until everybody is gone, but hell, that would mean standing here for at least three hours with my butt hanging out. On the other hand at least this way they can't see my dick and the hairs it has been growing. No, I can't wait it out that long. I have to do it. I have to tell him all.
Oh, how I hate this walk. There's Dad at the grill talking to Gary and Mr. Johnson. Well at least the Kids are out in the yard and Mom, Lois and Mrs. Johnson are at the other end of the deck. Maybe they will not hear me, maybe they will not notice...fat chance, but I can always hope.
"Dad, I'm sorry, I really am. I know I should not smoke pot. I know it was wrong of me to sell it to Billy, especially because he is younger than me. I really did mean to put the money back in mom's purse after Billy paid me for the pot. But I couldn't find her purse at a time when she wouldn't see me putting the money back. I know what I did was very wrong, and I deserve to be punished. Please spank me very hard, use your belt or what ever you want. I deserve it, I want your forgiveness. I hate you being angry and ashamed of me, it hurts worse than any spanking. Please punish me so we can start off again with a clean slate."
Dad, Gary and Mr. Johnson looked at me agast.
"Billy get your butt over here NOW" Mr. Johnson yelled.
"Tommy, is this true?" dad asked. "I'm glad you decided to tell me about it, although you will still be punished for it. But that is not why you were in the corner. I want you to go cut me a switch off the willow tree and tell all the kids to come over here. But after we are done, you are going back into the corner...this time to think about forging notes to school."