[please see the first part for the background on this actual correspondence between a boy recently spanked and the man who spanked him]
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Date: 30-07-2000
Scott,
"Yeah you reached me, I would agree. So am I sort of like an iceberg, most of me is hidden under the surface?..." That's not unusual, but that's a very good description, I would agree.
". . . but how far down did you go? Definetely farther than anyone has ever before, but not all the way! I guess my emotions and feelings, as you'd say, are the deepest down. I guess you're right." The more you get to know me, the better you'll relate. Keeping emotions and things deep down is very, very important in most life situations, but it is also very healthy if there is at least one person you can really let things out with. You're fine and you and I both know it. I'm sure we'll grow closer still over time.
"Hey I never told anyone I recalled meeting you when I was that young... Actually a lot of the stuff of "how I met you" I did not tell anyone." Hey, I was half joking, but it's fine with me -- or to quote Scott "cool." Actually the notion that I knew your Dad is fine, who knows, I might have and my hunch is I'd be proud of it if I had.
"So you'll be here at the airport for 3 hours eh? Don't worry, I won't faint; I'll never do that just because you are arriving. Maybe I'll get a little "antsy" but not even a lot." Well, if I miss that plane at noon, I'll be around for probably three days before there is space for me to get out. Now that should make you more than just "antsy"?
". . .. remember I am a lot more comfortable now that I was even before we met." Yea, me too (!), But I'm glad I asked/told you to come.
"If you take a project here though... well that's 15 minutes away from my house! But don't worry I said I won't faint!!" Fifteen minutes, huh? Now that would certainly put me close enough to monitor things. Be good for you, but I'm just talking with them. No were near a decision.
"Ahhhh I can't recall your full name! It's just Cal.... Cal Cal Cal Cal...." Details, my boy, details? That how you got spanked for leaving the shoes in the living room when I'd told you to keep everything away and neat. Time to focus, Scott.
"Yes, I realize I didn't write too much about my emotions or feelings. . . I guess I need to learn to grow in that aspect... but the thing with me.. I don't readily feel emotional. It's not like I'm forcing anything back emotionally... I just don't feel it most of the time. But I know it's there." Yea, you're normal, but you don't feel emotional because you don't allow yourself to. Heck, you've been living in a country that's pushed you that way for 21 years and it doesn't change over a weekend. But, I would feel them. They are there.
"But yeah, when you were holding me that night on the couch... I sort of realized what you were trying to do... but I didn't start talking to please you per se... I felt like I myself was totally sealed off... and I didn't like that about me... and to let go a little would be good." It wasn't just "a little."
"Yes, probably by that time I felt like the whole thing was mutual... maybe before that I had less trust, more reservations, more doubts. It was very important actually, to meet totally out of the way, for 3 days, in a comfortable environment. You might not have reached me at all otherwise." For sure, you would have never relaxed enough in a hotel or for a day. We made the right decision and I'm glad we did it that way too. You're fine now.
"(I'm not the easiest guy to reach)." -- Nah, I don't think you're so difficult to reach or to understand and what I see, felt, etc. looks good and very normal to me, except that you are very creative and talented with more smarts that I suspect people give you credit for. I can see people not picking up on lots of really nice things about you and missing a lot.
"As for the fact that I came... I don't relate that too much to emotional... to me it feels all physical, that aspect of it. But maybe there's something I just don't see yet." Nope, every man, and most of the world, knows that _s_e_x_ is far more than just physical. That's a good deal of the reason why many men are impotent.
"But of course every time we meet won't be the same as the first time. Hey, no one needs to be spanked that much! HA AHA HAHAH!!" heheheheh, but then again Scott just might. He's not like all the others, sometimes. Scott responds quite well over a man's knee and will for a long time in the future.
"But you bet I'll be working on that stuff I'm supposed to! I want to improve in every way, just need to get off my arse and do it. Hehhh..." But better make sure you've good some good progress before Wednesday, just in case. Rules are meant to be enforced and I meant that. Do it!
I'll probably hear from you at the airport?" Yes, I'll phone if I can get through.
"If you miss the flight... well um, let me know what happens. You got my number." Yep, save dinner and you are not to make any plans for that night, just in case.
later, / yep
Scott / Cal