Letter #11 "Found a Mentor"
Dear Cal,
If I had not found MMSA Stories then we would be further into our "rut". The idea of explaining to Paul what I wanted and deserved was scary. Both of us came from families where we did not discuss much of anything let alone ... spanking desires. In addition to getting spanked-and whipped with the old-fashioned willow branch, Paul has used the crop and an old thick belt (from an Amish saddle maker in Ohio, my native State) on my ass now.
I used to think I was tough-but after about 4 or 5 slaps I am yelling and feeling the pain, then the remaining spanks leave me feeling like I do not want more-just wanting the punishment to be over. Funny but sooner or later I -Do- want more! Paul says that he is going to start let me have some discipline out in the garage, I think soon I will be soundproofing it! Yea, I let it ALL out when I'm getting it, and I am sure that he plans on increasing the pay-load (pain load) of the sessions he gives me . . . any milder sessions we have had have proven to wear off-in an attitude way-soon afterwards, except for the couple of slightly more severe sessions.
Paul is as shy and quiet and much older, but has taken a liking to the role of my mentor, this in turn has transposed over into our _s_e_x_ play, with him becoming quite _s_e_x_y and not at all bashful or prudent in exploring ways to ... do many of the " things" that before MMSA Stories were not possible for us.
Before he started spanking me, I was planning to possibly go through with my wayward intention of playing around (finding someone who would spank me), just like Scott wrote about. I never had it before. I mean no one ever spanked me but I wanted to experience so I figured...what the heck? But, having my own paternal wonder who is not afraid to put me over his knee leaves me feeling loved and willing to be devoted to my mentor. I really understand why Scott would feel that way! Do all men really want this? If they don't I think they are missing something important. It is good to be accountable to someone. Good, that is, except for those moments when you're actually getting spanked and it's embarrassing, but sometimes you just have to take it and anyway the rest is beyond describing and extremely rewarding!
Cliff