Cal,
I shouldnt be writing this, but Im going to risk it. I read Jules letter even though Im not allowed to read MMSA Stories. Ill get my ass beat if Im caught but Ill probably get it beat today anyway. Im in an SM relationship with a leather daddy and Im in it by choice. I live in San Francisco and came up here because I wanted to find a leather daddy. I picked one up in a bar the first night I was here and got tied up over his bed and got my ass whipped with his big black belt and _f_u_c_k_ed. When hes in the mood its brutal. When hes not hes casper milk toast. He keeps a silver _c_o_c_k_ring on my _c_o_c_k_ and Im restrained with cuffs and leg and wrist chains a lot too. Sometimes when we go out Im in Levis that are two sizes to small because he likes the way they show my _c_o_c_k_. We live in the Castro so its OK. If his friends are over like on memorial day the other day when we grilled dogs on the small patio, Im allowed to wear my leather chaps that show my ass. I like that! If he says Ive been good I can wear a jock under my chaps like that day I was allowed. No shirt. I dont own any underwear anymore. He calls me his little leather boy and I get paddled with his paddles a lot. I suck a lot and when he has his paddle in his hand I suck even better. Mostly I suck him but memorial day I had to suck dry his three friends. After they left he spanked me really hard because he said I didnt suck them very well and so he had to punish me and _f_u_c_k_ed me. It was his excuse. In SM I get punished all the time anyway. Its OK. I like him working on me. Hes sleeping one off right now so Im risking it and writing. I want to write so what the heck.
Jules needs to know SM has a lot of advantages and for kids like him too and the security and dependableness is part of it. I ran away from home when I was 15 and came out here. I identify a lot with Tigger who wrote cause Ive been there in LA and used to be afraid with my pals of picking up the next guy for a meal. Street guys have to suck a lot for a next meal but I never let anybody _f_u_c_k_ me so up here with my leather daddy is better. Im into the leather and I like having to show my buns and getting spankings. I like getting spanked in front of his pals too. Something hot about it. I like being around his bar pals and their boys and I really like it a lot when one of them gets spanked in front of me! It really makes me hot seeing one of my buds get his ass spanked! It happens more time that you might think too. It doesnt matter how many times youve been spanked or how many times your bud has seen you get spanked. There is something so hot about watching him get it and his watching me get it too. I cant explain it but its humiliating, embarrassing, hurts, but its soooooo hot too! When Tigger wrote about his guy asking that man in the house where they were and borrowing that guys bedroom to take him in there and spank him with EVERYBODY out side hearing and knowing. Hey, Ive been there and more than a couple of times too. Coming out after and facing them all is unbelieveable but you have to do it or you will get spanked again and we all know it too! Worse is getting your face slapped in front of everybody. If you have never had that happen, you cant believe how it feels and all when you see everybody looking at you when you come out of that room where hes spanked you and youre frantically buckling your jeans and hes right behind you! EVERYBODY knows your jeans have been down and you got it good! No way to hide it, and your eyes are red, but still. The other guys look at you and are glad it wasnt them and the other dads snear at you like they know you deserved it and! then yo ull see one of them take their own boy in there. Sometimes the dad take their boys in their like a chain one after another once one boys gotten it and it sounds like each dad is trying to prove he spanks his boy harder by the sounds of it. They call it a "spanking party." I call it Hell! Anyway, lots of guys at least in California get spanked and get it like in front of somebody that sometimes. Tigger and I arent the only lucky ones. There is something about this life and knowing that even though Im too old for it I still get spanked and paddled and so do my friends here. A lot of guys get spanked in the Castro and Im happy Im one of them too. There's something really hot about going out to brunch with your ass read hot! More so when others there know you've gotten it too and maybe some of them have as well. Ive always been a sub and I LOVE being told what I am going to do. And I do it! A spanking here really hurts too! On the other hand, Im going to admit I feel really great when its all over!
What I dont like about this SM is the alcohol and some of the drugs he and his pals use. Its one thing to be spanked but its a whole other matter to be spanked when hes drunk or on something. When he is my ass gets whipped raw and Ive been bound and left in a closet for all day and when he takes me out I get whipped again and _f_u_c_k_ed too. Id argue for Jules in a discipline relationship like you write about, but not SM and especially not with alcohol because it hurts too much and some guys get really hurt. Iread about the guys whove been at your place and I know I could do well and get somewhere like that too. Im not allowed to read MMSA Stories but I do anyway. What the hell. Being with a leather dads fine but being with one who also gets me back in school would be so much better. I know it and I think Jules knows it too. Theres nothing better than being told and getting your ass slapped but not in this beer SM way. This way weve got no future. Take Jules or let him go with someone you know good. And if youd ever say where you are, maybe you could take me too! Say the word and Ill be there tomorrow. I already know how to obey and I really like it too.
Need to sign off quickly. My masters sounding like hes about to get up and I dont want my ass whipped more than its going to be anyway today. Hes got a friend coming over today and I always get it when that old farts here. Wish me luck! BUT please write back.
Talk to you later!
Jim
18, 5 foot 8 inches, 140 pounds, 6 inches, no body hair, coal black hair and black eyes, a great body with super buns and I can take it and want it too. Got to go quickly! Bye for now. Please write back. I check e-mail when I can but sometimes when hes mad I cant for a few days.